Yeah of course… I am absolutely afraid… worried…. about my life…. that thing sometime comes to my mind..
Actually what are you afraid of? your life?
I am afraid when I have to leave people who I love. Chica is one of them. O ya, Chica gradually recovers… This morning she could smile and make a sound (zz…zz…zz..with four teeth). I will miss her so much when I am far away from her. I will not see her for a long time. Her face when I hold her, when she sleep, her smile, everything.. She is really meaningful for me. Everything will be the same because love never die anytime and anywhere. She is not my daughter of course. She has parents who love her so much. I believe my sister will be a great mommy… she became more patient now. So… they will be OK and beside that I also have my own life. However… part of my self wont go but the other part say that I have to go… confusing… life is complicated…(No…everything will be more complicated when you grow up :p).
